Say my man!…You remember me right?..I’ve been apart of your life since ’85!…From the time you uttered your first word, “Mah”!…Now before you get all tough and ish, just hear me out!..It’s me, your intuition!…I was with you when you began walking at 8 months old!..You’ve always kept me in the cold, but no hard feelings right?!…I mean I’m not the one who didn’t listen to you…YOU didn’t listen to ME!…Now I’ve been around for some pretty amazing accomplishments…Honor student, pretty good ball player, amongst a few things that I’d mention!..And then there were the What Tha Fuck moments…The choices that you’ve just now realized that weren’t the greatest!…Just to name a few, that time you didn’t even think to apply to colleges because you were ok with settling for DBCC…Man oh man, you made straight A’s in your first semester of college and walked away…You wanted money, so you just quit on a dream!…How about those gals you chased?!…Bruh, I told you that it wasn’t going to end well, but you didn’t listen!..You were thinking with the wrong head!…Sure, you may have thought you were in love, but I’m sure you learned from that!…Ooohhhh and trying to satisfy everyone!…Hahahahaha, Man sheeeeit, they’ll be serving ice water in Hell before that happens!…Now, that I have your attention, just listen for once!…You’ve been a pretty good guy for as long as I could remember…Why did it take so much chaos for you to finally listen to me?!…Was the feeling of failure, the hurt, deceit or just that you ran out of answers?!…You became a shell of yourself and thennnn you gave in!…Hey Man, I’m not mad at you one bit!…Since then, you’ve garnered the respect from your peers!…You’ve made a name for yourself!..You went back to school and now you’re really living up to your hype!..When you had the idea to sell meals to people, I was the one that gave you the green light!…These days you’re really making a second income doing great things!..Your doing meal preps and this Spring, you’ll be catering a 100 guest wedding!…All you had to do was listen and believe in yourself!..I’m going to leave you with this….Just remember when the chips were down…No phone calls…You felt like nobody cared…I did!..So when you felt like the whole world turned on you…It was you and me!…Never forget that!…I’ll never steer you wrong!…I’m here to guide, Not to misdirect you!…I love you Caley!…How do you say it?!…Solid!
By: Caley Bouie
That alarm that keeps waking you up at the crack of dawn, yet you can’t find, yes it’s me. You are not going crazy but you are going in circles and I’m here to guide you. Why do you doubt my instructions? Ye of little faith, have I ever led you wrong? I have never said anything out-of-place or biased. I told you what not to say and you still said it, I told you what not to do and yet you still did it. I let you learn but when will you listen? When will you trust me? That thing you call intuition, the voice you call God, yes that’s me and yes I am you. You are me, yet you still questions my motives and trust others. When you fall I never say, “I told you so”, nope, that’s all you, but it’s all good. Life is a journey it’s about the experience. Until you learn to live in Harmony, you will stay on the same level re-learning the same lessons. Life is a gift, your presence radiates your energy, so stay positive, anguish is a mindset. You are divine light having a human experience, intentionally unbeknownst to you. Once you are in unison with your mind and body then we can be one. I live in the place where you dream and you live in mine. You are my thoughts manifested into this realm. Relax, trust me, love yourself and love others. Love is the only answer, love is your religion. Be a giver and you will never have to take another day in your life. You must learn to walk in peace before you can fly in light. It’s not about how to get over something, it’s about how to go through it and remain at peace. Don’t question your purpose and don’t give up on your day dreams. You were beautifully crafted by me, so don’t change who you are for the world, but change how you view the world. Everything and everyone is connected. Fear nothing, let the past go don’t let your ghost haunt you. Manifest your destiny and so it shall be. Conquer your ego, your addictions and your attachments, it is then you will come to rely on your inner chi. Don’t go out searching, yet go out exploring, store your memories for your higher purpose. Protect your energy and shed negative vibes to keep your temple sacred. Breathe and think before you react, matter of fact don’t react just understand. Vibe with your soul, listen to the frequencies and say less.
By: Keidra Ponder
This is a ballad from myself to myself. I encourage readers to have a heart to heart with themselves and share it with us. #BalladChallenge #Frommetoyouchallenge
It took me some time to come to terms about my issues with men, but life has a way of bringing you back to certain memories. I was a product of a domestic violent home, my first poem I ever wrote was about how no man is going to put his hands on me. I thank God my mother survived those days, I truly admire her in many ways. I don’t share a lot of my personal life, but I had to relive it in telling Santina Proctor’s story. I shed tears while putting this piece together. One person’s courage can bring hope to so many others and that’s exactly what she did with It’s Not Your Fault 91.
Santina Proctor is a 33-year-old motivational speaker and domestic violence awareness advocate, she is the creator of It’s Not Your Fault 91 which began in 2015. On top of being an entrepreneur she is also a licensed practical nurse. Santina spent her childhood in Detroit, Michigan and then relocated to Daytona Beach, Fl at the age of seven after losing her mother to domestic violent situation. After graduating high school in 2001 Santina joined the U.S Army in which she served in Operation Iraqi Freedom in 2003. After an honorable discharge from the military Santina studied to become a Licensed Practical Nurse, graduating in 2005.
Mrs. Proctor currently resides in Chesapeake, Va with her husband and two children. She uses her turmoil as a testimony to help women who find themselves in compromising situations. Her goal is to give a voice to domestic violence and help get rid of the mentality what happens in this house stays in this house. Mrs. Proctor has spoken at San Diego State University, Elizabeth City State University and numerous locations throughout Virginia and North Carolina. Each year Santina hosts a team in Samaritan’s House 5K. Santina has also produced two documentaries which can be found on YouTube under It’s Not Your Fault 91 Part 1 and Part 2. Santina is currently challenging 500 people to take a pledge against domestic violence in the month of February. Her motto is, “Sometimes the children are the survivors”.
If you’re looking for a speaker at your next engagement contact Santina Proctor, her words are heartfelt and motivational. Contact her via email at email@example.com and follow her on FaceBook: It’s Not Your Fault 91 and Instagram: inyf_91 to stay current with her works. I urge everyone to be accountable for their actions and take the pledge against domestic violence.
By: Keidra Ponder and Santina Proctor